too long between blogs

worried sick monster in the floorboard if you took to me like a gull takes to the wind in way too deep just wanna drive king of the eyesores 17 hours and they all cut their thumbs i like clapping all the way to the trail and still dont know anything OBSESS tell the boys or dont the high school quarterback is doing the noon walk of shame after this weekends big win weekend dads driving their kids around meet me at the trail dummy instead of coffee thats probably the greatest idea ive had in a long time.

sounds like elmo is in the backyard at eli's but i can't see just finished cleaning her kitchen got to wear the purple rubber gloves (!) nobody is saying anything even though its been culled down to so few surely its obvious though not to me its been 14 months out of 24 its gotta happen within 10 months to make me believe in anything i asked him to pray for me at church this morning he didnt get the text until later shes had 37 years to talk to me and now she decides its time the lady has an elmo voice changer maybe its just a little girl calling the dogs shes probably the best friend ive ever had and i dont even think she likes me half the time thermal plaid flannel jeans boots who you callin a tomboy i think i'll wear it again today i hate change i hated it when brain keane left the band 4 yrs ago i hate that NONE of my grandparents are still alive on any of the three sides i hate that our family doesnt get together at holidays and birthdays anymore i hate that we dont eat at the table or have rules or chores or traditions we didnt even carve a pumpkin i hate my genes and the way my ass looked in those jeans yesterday three red balloons was worth it i guess 

TO DO: paint sign for jane bring shirt catalog find packaging/envelope ideas hobby lobby michaels hobby lobby coast guard??? mani/pedi SOC 15 days - isnt that a song? maybe 16 days austin collins 22 hours 11 months
ugh it only lasted 11 months and it was 4 years 5 years? ago right now early november the funerals they even gave ME a rose to place on the casket she put cheese on glazed donuts and called it cheese toast she paid for their college he made me memorize the books of the bible and rewarded me with a purple stuffed elephant he built a life size cradle with his own two hands for a child he asked me to kill all the dogs are barking sometimes when the dogs are barking i think the baby is crying the hellwegs are way cooler than the shifletts if i still had that camper...